Love

I think this film ' One Rat Short' speaks so so so much on love...it's a very special and beautiful film. I bet you'll love it...i applaud the makers and wished i can make films this good....

it goes to show....eloquently
how love can be so simple n sincere....
and can exist such coincidentally in such chaos....
and be so beautiful and yet tragic all at the same time...

sometimes we who are in love don't realise what a gem we have...
sometimes we know we have a gem yet we have to let go...
I pray I can love sincere...I pray I'll be loved sincere...
I pray for you guys too...

may we all...

experience it...

wonderful...beautiful

love.

:)

Froggie's Bittersweet Valentine

The slideshow above is dedicated to my beautiful, very sporting and really cute though slightly cina-beng girlfriend (then again, i am quite cina pek)...Zhiling Chia. She's currently an aupair in America. We have had a long distance relationship for the last year or so....

I would be so happy to be hers but this valentine's day is a little sad for me as my girlfriend whom i love very much has left me. And though we had small breakups before...this time it may just be the real end...and so froggie is sad...It's not her fault...nor mine but our fault. As we are people from different walk of life...we have different ideals,wants and needs.And sometimes...arguements comes from the differing ideals....I can be quiet an ass sometimes...and I guess I was in this arguement wanting to of course win it...and well...she left me.It's funny how the arguement didn't matter anymore...I let her win it now.... I really tried to win her back...she's very much everything to me and despite having some flaws, she is a wonderful wonderful girlfriend....

dear...I am truly sorry...

I m imperfect dear but I feel it's not about perfection but loving inspite of the imperfection and possibly being romantic by finding perfection in togetherness.

also, dear...please don't say you want to be strong and don't want to be emotionally dependent on me...I want to be emotionally dependent on someone...I think that's why God made us in two...I am dependent emotionally on you because I love you...

dear...I am lonely because you are so far away but so long as you are my girlfriend at least I am not lonely at heart...now i am lonely at heart and it's not nice.

I am stressed out thinking...if we will still be...I can't close my eye because i'll see you and it's painful because you're not mine

dear...we had wonderful memories together...I don't want just those memories....I want you...more of you...

dear...I already love you alot and you know that. say you love me...and you'll have me.I am sorry...Happy Valentine's Day...



That aside...I was at the cinema for valentine eve...while there were many people there with flowers and their girlfriend/boyfriend that made my mind sort of wonder to my own sad situation above I was happy with people I love on the eve of valentine's day. I was with my grandfather, brother, father and granduncle...

I brought my grand-dad to the movie Rambo as he was the one who made me want to be a filmmaker and the rambo series of movies were one that we shared long ago...Rambo: First Blood, Rambo: First Blood Part 2 and Rambo 3...classics! Well...traffic in town was horrendous so I m glad we got there with enough time to settle my granddad into his seat before going out to buy him a drink....i want a cold mix hot milo...because hot may be too hot for the old man....I told the girl...she gave me the ??? look. First pour in the cold milo...then add some hot onelah...aiyor...but she obliged after i explained....



A quick review of the film...
It felt very short...it was straight to the action brutal shit....there's no middle bit where the film gets it's intellectual meat...it's hey...lets just just start, establish a story as quick and straight to the action. But it's not a bad thing...somehow Stallone after all these years knows how to tap into the male pyche of liking to see a hero brutally kicking butt and that's exactly what he delivers to the dot. It's not your typical Rambo movie where he works alone....this one her has a bunch of mecenaries...these add on characters were cutboard cut-out with the usual 'baddie'good guy who gets his fair share of pain and gets stared down by stallone and the good soldier plus the extras for killing off...the usual.

One thing that stand out were the lines....awesome and somewhat philosphical like "how ironic it is to send the devil to do God's work"or "Live for Nothing or Die for Something" or the one where he asked "Are you bringing weapons? If you're not you're changing nothing" There were some point in the film which i feel could have been further polished to make great moments but somehow were wasted.One was the one where he had to run from an exploding british bomb...that could have ended with a signature action movie signature jump but it didn't. Still I enjoyed it...but i wish my girlfriend was there with me....wait...i wish i had a girlfriend....



So yeah...a bittersweet valentine for me.....

A belated Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

wasabi,monkeys,a dirty car and being happy!

So what makes me happy or what is a happy moment for me? When i was wanting to write a blog entry about being happy...I immediately started to think...what makes me happy? at which point...i stopped myself as i wondered...must i make an effort to be happy? must I think what is a happy moment? am i such a sad contrived person that being happy takes effort? and suddenly...it just popped out...being happy can just mean being happy...and so i just begin to write...

about three weeks ago....i was with a friend and her little 10 year old nephew calvin...he was obviously unhappy as he was getting very little attention.We then went for sushi for lunch...at lunch...my friend dipped her sushi in wasabi to which her nephew asked..."auntie, what is that?" The aunt,my friend subsequently replied...it's wasabi...it's for man only. This was an obvious tease to the little boy as he was always fond of tapping his chest with his fist and declaring "I'm the man!!!" And so...when her auntie prompted further by pushing it to him and saying you're the man aren't you? He quickly took one sushi...plomped it into the wasabi and quickly into his mouth...he then...raised his hand...placed it at the back of his head...shake his head...shake his head violently...and then he reached out for something to drink...he grabs the green tea...but that's smoking hot...so too bad...he just sad there...his hand clasped his face....and then tears streaked out.

Me and his auntie had a great laugh....yes, it was kinda cruel but if you think this is my posting for being happy...no it is not....well maybe...for us...but i am not that evil...

Calvin was really pissed after that and refused to talk to his aunt anymore.Not even if he died and gets reborn...he will not forgive her....she is the devil (pronounced d-vil)But as I was still in calvin's good book...though I somewhat played a part...hehehehehe... I offered to pacify him....I told her 'auntie' to leave him at my house...I'll fetch him home later.

At my house...I first brought calvin to the park....to feed monkeys....i told him to show a scary face so the monkeys will be intimidated and wouldn't come near him.this is how to be a man!!!! he started to smile...I was his brother....then I brought him back to my house....I was thinking of other ways to make him smile...hey, my car is kinda dirty.So I told calvin....hey calvin...wanna wash my car? we race okie...you was one side...I wash the other....

So we went back...settled on the middle line...and began washing....he tore his sponge to two to speed things up...we went next to neck....I finished first,I won! then he pointed out that i missed a spot...so as I washed that spot...he declared himself the winner...but then...I inspected his side and he missed a tire...



That night he has forgiven his auntie....it's amazing how monkeys and a carwash can make him forgive her auntie when even dying and being reborn won't.....It's funny how effortless it takes to be happy sometimes....maybe we should all try to be happy....wait, maybe we shouldn't try at all....just be happy!!!!

this blog is part of a happy competition...to write a happy blogpost.... I kinda like the idea of the contest....and so here is my entry. There is a 5k prize at stake for the best post....so do join if you wanna chance to win the cash or need the cash. Or if you wanna help me win it...log on to the site...and vote for me.For entry details or to vote for me click on the happy smiley below. If I win it...I have already decided that since it's extra cash for me, I will use the money to make some homeless kids happy... because i get so happy making a kid happy.... regards to you all my new friends who's popping by for the first time from the happy contest... do pop a message if you are a newcomer here...

SICK FROGGIE

Sorry that froggie been away awhile...i have been like working like mad before chinese new year break...what's working like mad? well sleeping bout two three hours....work the entire day ...sleep two three hours...work work work...the perks? i can finish enough work that i can have an 18 day chinese new year break after...but the bad part? I was torturing myself more or less....finding myself yawning and tearing while pearing into a computer screen...but my body stayed strong and loyal...

i was packing like mad before I come home...and guess what...it's as if my body knows...it's home...it's time to fall sick so this crazy fellow will finally rest...if not i be overly excited and running about like crazy yumcha-ing with friends...and so my body crashed...

I have a fever...

a fever is a funny funny thing....when you get it...you just ache all over, good home cook food taste like crap and you feel both hot and cold at the same time....you feel like dying...but you are not actually dying...you're just miserable...as you sweat you are hot...and sticky but you cannot shower...paracetamol sort of hides the pain awhile and then you feel so alive....but then if you take it for granted you get sicker right after it wears off...sigh....

but it's good to have a fever...when you feel so bad...it means you can only feel great after or it lets you appreciate more the time you feel great...and it's good to test out your body's immune system...to perk it up...because a fever afterall is your body trying to fight off an infection and regulate itself once again...

so yeah...feeling half asleep all day and drowsy....going from the bed to the sofa...sleep more...shift to another chair...sleep somemore....recuprating...in kuching.

no worries...froggie won't die...at least he thinks he won't...or if he does..well at least it's at home :P