Thursday, February 14, 2008

Froggie's Bittersweet Valentine



The slideshow above is dedicated to my beautiful, very sporting and really cute though slightly cina-beng girlfriend (then again, i am quite cina pek)...Zhiling Chia. She's currently an aupair in America. We have had a long distance relationship for the last year or so....

I would be so happy to be hers but this valentine's day is a little sad for me as my girlfriend whom i love very much has left me. And though we had small breakups before...this time it may just be the real end...and so froggie is sad...It's not her fault...nor mine but our fault. As we are people from different walk of life...we have different ideals,wants and needs.And sometimes...arguements comes from the differing ideals....I can be quiet an ass sometimes...and I guess I was in this arguement wanting to of course win it...and well...she left me.It's funny how the arguement didn't matter anymore...I let her win it now.... I really tried to win her back...she's very much everything to me and despite having some flaws, she is a wonderful wonderful girlfriend....

dear...I am truly sorry...

I m imperfect dear but I feel it's not about perfection but loving inspite of the imperfection and possibly being romantic by finding perfection in togetherness.

also, dear...please don't say you want to be strong and don't want to be emotionally dependent on me...I want to be emotionally dependent on someone...I think that's why God made us in two...I am dependent emotionally on you because I love you...

dear...I am lonely because you are so far away but so long as you are my girlfriend at least I am not lonely at heart...now i am lonely at heart and it's not nice.

I am stressed out thinking...if we will still be...I can't close my eye because i'll see you and it's painful because you're not mine

dear...we had wonderful memories together...I don't want just those memories....I want you...more of you...

dear...I already love you alot and you know that. say you love me...and you'll have me.I am sorry...Happy Valentine's Day...



That aside...I was at the cinema for valentine eve...while there were many people there with flowers and their girlfriend/boyfriend that made my mind sort of wonder to my own sad situation above I was happy with people I love on the eve of valentine's day. I was with my grandfather, brother, father and granduncle...

I brought my grand-dad to the movie Rambo as he was the one who made me want to be a filmmaker and the rambo series of movies were one that we shared long ago...Rambo: First Blood, Rambo: First Blood Part 2 and Rambo 3...classics! Well...traffic in town was horrendous so I m glad we got there with enough time to settle my granddad into his seat before going out to buy him a drink....i want a cold mix hot milo...because hot may be too hot for the old man....I told the girl...she gave me the ??? look. First pour in the cold milo...then add some hot onelah...aiyor...but she obliged after i explained....



A quick review of the film...
It felt very short...it was straight to the action brutal shit....there's no middle bit where the film gets it's intellectual meat...it's hey...lets just just start, establish a story as quick and straight to the action. But it's not a bad thing...somehow Stallone after all these years knows how to tap into the male pyche of liking to see a hero brutally kicking butt and that's exactly what he delivers to the dot. It's not your typical Rambo movie where he works alone....this one her has a bunch of mecenaries...these add on characters were cutboard cut-out with the usual 'baddie'good guy who gets his fair share of pain and gets stared down by stallone and the good soldier plus the extras for killing off...the usual.

One thing that stand out were the lines....awesome and somewhat philosphical like "how ironic it is to send the devil to do God's work"or "Live for Nothing or Die for Something" or the one where he asked "Are you bringing weapons? If you're not you're changing nothing" There were some point in the film which i feel could have been further polished to make great moments but somehow were wasted.One was the one where he had to run from an exploding british bomb...that could have ended with a signature action movie signature jump but it didn't. Still I enjoyed it...but i wish my girlfriend was there with me....wait...i wish i had a girlfriend....



So yeah...a bittersweet valentine for me.....

A belated Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day everyone.

6 comments:

Samantha said...

happy valentines. don't rush into relationships. sometimes if u like geeks but if geeks aren't ur type forget it. listen to yasmin. explore.

davolution said...

I really feel your pain. Reading yours is like almost reading my own life. I will drop by often. Thankz.

HuonHengChai said...

eh frog, don't give up. Remember the time you sms me telling me that you fell off the stairs and that pain is just a reminder that you are alive? That time I was thinking that even in emotions it is the same case, perhaps it may be helpful for you if you could apply that mind set in this situation.
Happy Valentine's day

Spider

narrowband said...

It happens dude, and I *so* can relate. Anyways here's a toast to better days ahead... Breakups aren't always easy. But if they happen amicably with mutual consent then I think that itself is quite a bargain already. Happy Valentine's!

David Yuen said...

I have huge respect for you! I'm glad that u understand my point.

babyPup said...

valentine's is just a day to rip u off ur hard earned money.


true love is 365 days a year :)

anyhoo, no worries as froggies tend to attract women hehe

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